DRUGS AND HALLUCINATIONS

 Since I had to stay in the hospital an extra month , they had also decided to put me on extra meds to help with the foot healing . One of the side effects was one of these meds made me hallucinate like crazy . The nurses even said they could hear me talking and sometimes laughing when I was completely alone in my room . It seemed so real . One time I thought my kids were in the hospital at three am , so i was desperately looking for some cash in my belongings so I could give them money for a hotel ! Of course they weren't there . I would talk to people who would suddenly get up and disappear . There is much much more . Suffice it to say I've never experienced anything like that in my entire life. 

BEFORE I EVEN START

 Before I even begin with my story of illness, I need to say that the fascist state of israel's " pre-emptive " strike on Iran is nothing but an amerikkkan backed lie , the same way that killing 72,000 Palestinians and burying children under rubble is " self-defense" . Fascist lies from start to finish , but they'll get away with it because they have amerikkka's backing . Murderous scumbags .

OL' FOUR TOED JIM

 Once my foot got infected ( my immune system was beaten to shit by the chemo ) , it grew to twice it's normal size , especially the second toe , and that toe had some kinda black crusty shit on it . Three different doctors had come in to say that the thing was going to be removed , until someone called for the specialty Wound Care Nurse , who started scraping the black stuff off. It fucking hurt like crazy , so they started giving me dilaudid and even fentanyl every time she was coming around to torture me , but I am so grateful she did . She saved my toe . It was fucking excruciatingly painful , and there were months of followup , but she saved my toe when others said it had to go . It meant an extra month in the hospital .

EVERYONE TAKE THEIR TURN

 So we get there on the evening of Monday , June the 2nd , and I immediately get admitted to the leukemia ward . A nurse comes in , asks me a few questions , then asks , " Do you know what's going to be happening up here ?" , and I said , " Yeah , people are going to come in here taking turns beating the shit outta me " , and she said , " Yeah , basically " . They took me downstairs where they inserted a Hickman Line  and there it was to remain for 7 months. I felt like a fucking cyborg.

A Hickman line is a type of soft, flexible, tunneled central venous catheter inserted into a large vein in the chest (subclavian or internal jugular) to provide long-term access for chemotherapy, medication, nutrition (TPN), or blood sampling. It remains in place for extended periods, typically featuring 1-3 external lumens for simultaneous treatments. 

They didn't start on the chemo right away , but did so after a few days . I made the mistake of walking barefoot ( within my room ) , from the bed to the bathroom , and managed to get a foot infection which entered through a wound from a corn that I had removed earlier in May . That managed to screw things up for an extra month .

SURPRISE , YOU'VE GOT LEUKEMIA !

 I'm sure that my 2-6 readers know what has been happening , especially the local ones. Hell, even if you're not local, the internet is a wonderful/horrible thing .

Towards the end of May 2025, I started feeling like I was getting the flu. I thought nothing of it , after all, who's afraid of the flu ? But then I developed a giant coldsore on my face , the first one ever in my life, so I decided to go to an Urgent Care Centre . They gave me a req for blood work , which I got done, and they called me immediately the next day . Never a good sign . 

I went in to see the doctor , and he immediately starts drop the " L-Bomb" on me . What the fuck is this ? He could have broken it to me gently, the awkward fuck . He told me he'd refer me to a hematologist , who would then get me a bed at the Royal Jubilee Hospital , and then I'd get shipped to Vancouver . Simple as that . Infuckingcorrect . It's not 1950. They wanted me to leave on the Friday , but I wasn't just going to leave my kids like that , so I said Monday . Once I said a very tearful goodbye to my son , I went to the RJH the next day . They barely had a fucking clue , and the doc told me I should consider driving myself to Vancouver General Hospital. What the fuck is this ? I was already weak and lightheaded , and what happens if I get there and there are no beds ? Luckily , my sister was with me and knows how to navigate this maze of shit . She got them to call Vancouver , and they said to go home and wait for a call. The call came within the hour , and me and sis were on our way to Vancouver , which I thought was going to be about a month or so . Wrong again , asshole . 

THIS IS WHAT HAPPENS

 The amerikkkans and especially the fascist state of israel seem to think that there are no consequences for the genocide they're committing . Well there are, and there will be plenty more.

Shootings in D.C.:
U.S./Israeli genocide in Gaza is the source of all violence – resistance is justified

WW statement

By Workers World Party posted on May 23, 2025

When evaluating the May 21 shooting in Washington, D.C., the past 19 months of Israeli aggression throughout West Asia and especially its slaughter of the civilian population of Gaza with hundreds of thousands of people now facing starvation must be front and center. In those 19 months, despite massive opposition across the U.S. and internationally, both the Democrat and the Republican administrations continued to arm this genocide and aggressively target those who protest.

Washington, D.C., Nov. 4, 2023. WW Photo: Joe Piette

We in Workers World Party believe that organizing for collective resistance is the most effective weapon against the daily violence of imperialism. But we should never separate ourselves from those who take an action that they are driven to carry out, regardless of the personal cost to themselves. This includes the killing of two Israeli Embassy employees, allegedly by Elias Rodriguez on May 21. 

It is understandable that, like Aaron Bushnell did with his self-sacrifice over a year ago, others would be moved to take their own action in the hope of stopping these horrific U.S.-Israeli war crimes.

U.S. imperialism is a completely violent, repressive and brutal system. U.S. wars, invasions and occupations are responsible for the death of millions — in Korea, Vietnam, Central and South America, in Afghanistan, Iraq and Libya, in Yugoslavia and Ukraine in Europe and relentlessly for decades in Palestine, with the Israeli state as the willing killer. 

The intentional violence of strangulating U.S. sanctions has threatened  economic ruin to more than 40 countries, including almost all of the countries of West Asia — Palestine, Yemen, Syria, Lebanon, Iraq and Iran — and to Afghanistan and across Africa to Libya, Sudan, South Sudan, Ethiopia, Eritrea, Mali, Zimbabwe, to Cuba, Nicaragua, Venezuela and many others. 

The U.S. imperialist state also exercises this violence within its borders. The U.S. today has the world’s largest prison population, on average three police murders every day and raids and round-ups of migrants — all while criminalizing and threatening to shut down every form of public mass opposition.

U.S. imperialism is the main funder of and provides the most arms to the horrific Zionist genocide we see daily on our screens. 

You reap what you sow!

Acts of resistance, even individual acts, are inevitable and deserve support and defense, not lectures against individual violence in the midst of this genocidal, massive destruction. 

The two slain employees of the Israeli Embassy in Washington, D.C., Yaron Lischinsky and Sarah Lynn Milgrim, were official representatives of the Israeli state. They are accountable for its genocide. While the corporate media practically presented the two as lovers of peace, they were fervent defenders of the non-stop Zionist violence in Palestine. 

Lischinsky, a Christian Zionist and German citizen, enlisted in the Israel Occupation Forces. He has published tweets on X attempting to justify Israeli mass starvation, targeting of children and bombing hospitals, schools and U.N. convoys in Gaza. In other words, he cheered on the genocide.

Elias Rodriguez stated in a manifesto explaining his act of political protest, “The atrocities committed by Israelis against Palestine defy description and defy quantification.” He shouted, “Free Palestine!” at the scene. (For Rodriguez’s statement, see workers.org/2025/05/85786/)

All acts of resistance to the genocide in Gaza, a genocide exposed to the world, deserve to be defended by the movement as a whole.

Let’s focus all attention on the source of the violence — U.S. imperialism and its violent proxy force, Zionism.

IF YOU CAN STILL DEFEND THIS, YOU'RE FUCKED

 Trying to justify self-defense is one thing, but if you are still saying that what the fascist israeli government and army is doing in Gaza is justified, then you just don't have a fucking clue.

Children, Civlians Burned Alive as Israeli Warplanes Target School, Home in Gaza

May 26, 2025 News

Israeli warplanes targeted a school in Al-Daraj, in Gaza City. (Photo: via social media)

By Palestine Chronicle Staff  

Eyewitnesses described a hellish scene of flames and screams after Israeli warplanes struck sites sheltering civilians.

At least 50 Palestinians were killed on Monday morning in two Israeli airstrikes that targeted a school sheltering displaced people in Gaza City and a residential home in Jabaliya, northern Gaza.

A medical source told Anadolu news Agency that the death toll from the strike on the Fahmi al-Jarjawi School in Gaza City’s al-Daraj neighborhood had risen to 30. The school had been sheltering dozens of displaced families.

Eyewitness videos circulated online showed horrifying scenes of burned bodies—many of them children—as tents surrounding the school were engulfed in flames. 

Al-Aqsa TV and other local sources reported that a fire swept through the shelter following the bombing. One report described the scene: “Charred corpses and the screams of displaced people engulfed in flames were seen and heard from the site.”

The Israeli military later confirmed the strike, claiming the school had been converted into a “Hamas command and control center,” though no evidence was provided to support the allegation.

In a separate incident, 19 more people were killed and others wounded in an Israeli airstrike on a multi-story residential building in Jabalia town, northern Gaza, according to medical sources. 

Eyewitnesses reported that the building, which was housing dozens of displaced families, was completely destroyed.

Meanwhile, Al-Jazeera reported that casualties from the Gaza City school attack were transported to Al-Ma’amdani and Al-Shifa hospitals amid collapsing health conditions across the Strip.

In central Gaza, an Israeli drone strike on a kindergarten sheltering displaced civilians in the Maghazi camp killed at least one person and wounded several others.

These attacks come amid a broader escalation in Israeli bombardment. 

On Sunday, Gaza’s Health Ministry reported that 32 Palestinians were killed in airstrikes across the Strip, from Beit Lahia in the north to Khan Yunis in the south.

The Israeli military also claimed that three rockets were fired from southern Gaza on Monday toward surrounding areas. One was reportedly intercepted, with the army noting eight total rocket launches over the past week.

Since October 7, 2023, Israel—backed by the United States—has carried out a relentless military campaign across the Gaza Strip. Over 175,000 Palestinians have been killed or wounded, the vast majority women and children. 

More than 14,000 remain missing under the rubble, and hundreds of thousands have been forcibly displaced.

(PC, AJA, AA)