I went to Vancouver ( aka PTSD City ) to see my main leukemia doc . Nothing scary , he wanted to see me personally as it has been over 5 months . Apparently everything is going well , but of course I didn't tell him I just played a show and hugged most of the people there . Sure it may have been a stupid move on my part , but it was good for my mental health , and that has to count for something , don't it ? Yes it does . It was one of the best nights of my life . Imagine thinking you'd never do the thing you most love doing ever again , and then you get to ? Indescribable . I will never take that for granted .